God's love is deeper.

     Today was such a wonderful day! I didn't have any real plans but it was made perfect because of my husband. Sometimes he has these moments where he just knows what would be best for me.

     I had a rough night of itches again, and he needed sleep badly because he's been pretty sick, so I ended up spending half the night on the couch so he could sleep. Thankfully he did take today off to recuperate. Well Lily woke me up a couple times... the last one being around 5 am, and she wasn't interested in eating, sleeping- nothing. Of course this irritated me, probably too much. Well at 5 am he took her from me and I slept until 8am!! I said - "what did u guys do for 3 hours?" They came walking into the bedroom with a huge grin on his face and she looked happy too! He told me all he had done to keep her entertained-LOTS of Baby Einstein. And it didn't stop there people! He had done all the dishes, made coffee, and then offered me french toast! What in the world. This was HIS sick day. Not mine! But he said he knew I would need help this morning, so I'm in love with him all over again.

     The day just got better from that point on. Its amazing what a good morning will do for you. "Rise and shine and give God the Glory!" Talked to the Endocrinologist today.. He's going to lower my dose but first he wants me to stop taking it altogether and get on Benadryl to get rid of the itching fits for good. I took it 1 1/2 hours ago and still itching and no drowsiness.. Is it even working?

     Lily was such a doll today. She took a nap right after Paul brought her to me at 8am, and then again a little later when we went to Walmart. We're supposedly getting a lot of snow this week, but now I think the forecast is changing. I bought the eggs and milk we would need anyhow. We've gotten quite a bit of snow this winter except all at little intervals. I'm ready for one big downpour so everyone gets stuck at home. :o) While Lily was in bed tonight, I started thinking about how she's my daughter. So surreal. Thought about how when I was little I used to hear my parents enjoying each others company without us girls, and hear the tv shows change to commercials.. I loved the hum of the tv even when I wasn't included. It was a homey sound. I think I realize that more than I did then. I can't wait until Lily thinks like this. I'm in no rush for her to grow up, but I can't wait to have conversations with her. I love her so much.. I hope she realizes it one day.

      For a while now all this mother/daughter bonding has really made me appreciate my mother. I know they say this happens to every woman when they have a baby, but do I tell Mom that I love her enough? I say it to Lily several times a day, miss her when I'm in bed and she's been sleeping for 5 hours...cry sometimes because I just want to pick her up and kiss her little head... My mother had to be like this with me and my sisters, right? You just don't understand the love she had and still has for you until you go through it yourself. It makes me want to just pour out my love to her because she loves me as much as I love Lily. And that's amazing to me.

     I am trying to live off this kind of love now, rather than worrying about clothes, and furniture, etc.  I need to be able to be content with what God has given me. I remember when I was trying to have a baby (all of 2 months... felt like f.o.r.e.v.e.r.) I finally told myself "just be content!" and that's when we found out I was pregnant. The Lord blesses those who wait upon Him. I've been blessed so much.

No matter how much our husbands love us, or we has mommies love our babies, His love is deeper.